I’m writing this in the most awkward position…
Literally. Sometimes, lying on the floor and propping your legs against the wall is the only way to go. I haven’t written here is a while; I’ve been pretty lazy… and maybe a little underwhelmed. I’ve had no real urgency to let anything out. I don’t usually have good things to write about, if you hadn’t noticed… I let out things that feel toxic to me; things I know I shouldn’t be feeling but can’t stop myself from doing so. But, for once, I come with something healthy; something that is trying everything in it’s power to unleash the real me. It’s making me feel real again… it’s kind of hard to explain to anyone who has never felt hallow or as if their insides were numb.
It’s definitely strange for me to not be able to talk myself out of something… and actually do what I REALLY want to do, but there is something about this that gives me no choice. I can’t deny it because it won’t let me. And, this is all making me think just how simple life is probably meant to be. Every time I’ve constantly thought about something, it has turned out wrong… when things are yours without a doubt, you won’t have to think it through… you won’t have to think at all. It will just be.
ANYWAYYY……
I really do love red hair. And telling people what I like about them. And flowers. And people who do things “just because”. And the butterflies you feel in your stomach when you see something surprising. And when people blush. I’m even starting to like those awkward silences… that aren’t as awkward after all. (:
We meet so many people on a daily basis…. it’s crazy who sticks out, isn’t it?
Okay, I’m gonna go now. :x
