(: - This better be on purpose.
I like it when songs make me sad because they are sad… and not because I am. What a new sensation.
SO. I’ve been very quiet for the past week, or so, I cannot even remember how long it’s been, but I just haven’t been inspired to put my thoughts into words… they haven’t been bothering me. Hold on a second while I go find some wood to knock on…… I do have something to think about aloud tonight, however. Ready for it?
I’m attracted to things that are broken, I just want to fix everything, but it makes me so tired, more now than it ever did. I’ve always been the “light” to people, staying positive for the ones around me, but I need a light of my own, now. I think I need someone to fix me… well, “fix” sounds like such a job. Maybe, I just need an energy source to plug myself into to get a little charge going. I need someone to remind me of how good it feels to run in the rain and be crazy in public; to let my hair down and forget who is watching. I need someone to make me sing with them and show me that what I am is all I need to be.
I’ve never wanted something I’ve needed, before.
::rips hair out::
LOL. I need to accept it before this blog becomes a deep, dark pit of depression once again.
You know that part of your brain that never lets you be completely confident? Anyone know where the switch to turn that off, is? Or do I just have to be clumsy? I get more and more cautious by the minute… but, even these thoughts are out of character because my mind definitely says, “no”… but my heart just wants to stop fighting and surrender. I think I’m just tired of not getting what I want… if I want what I need there is no let down because you always get what you need.
